| I havent posted all summer so here is what I did.
I went to summer school. Both sessions. Got an A and B. Im proud of myself
Went to Warped Tour with Sarah. John. Tommy. Ricky. Shana. Matt and Sherene. I saw Margaret there.
I saw Under Oath. Hawthorne Heights. Motion City Soundtrack. Avenged Sevenfold. Senses Fail. 5606. Silverstein. All american rejects. Atreyu. And maybe more.
I met one of the guys from Under Oath and got a picture with him. The guy I met is the one in my picture.
I touched one of the guitarist in Hawthorne Hieghts.
I lost my voice during Hawthorne Heights. I was making a squeaky noise.
I was a foot away from the stage during Hawthorne Heights.
I badly sunburned. It was hot.
I had to stay at my aunts for 2 weeks while my dad was in Japan for work.
I got a 1997 VW Jetta. Its black and I looove it.
I had to stay at my g-parents house for a week because my dad had to go to Japan again.
I hung out with my boys a lot. Meaning Ricky. Tommy. Matt. and John. Maybe some Nick. Johnny and Dereck.
I havent dyed my hair all summer. Its sad.
I havent hung with a lot of people cause Ive been everywhere
I just got back from my moms. I was there for 2 weeks. It was fun
I should be getting braces soon
I got told I need to have jaw surgery if I get braces.
I found out a lot about mine and John relationship. Kind of scary.
Me and John are on good terms now. Which makes me happy.
I got a camera phone. Im a spoiled brat.
It feels like I barely had a summer. But it was a good one.
If I forgot something. I will add more. It is me and I forget a lot. |
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| Angels Below
you took me over the edge
and left me there to fall by myself
the word love meant nothing to you
i was taken in with your lies
and you knew i was too weak to leave
but you were wrong
you mean nothing to me now
every time you think of me
i hope your heart dies
i have found my true love
and you now burn beneath my feet
you'll pay for everything you've done
if you could die
i'd be the one with the gun
from this day on
i'll write the songs you hate
and pray the prayers that drive you away
it's time to let the world know how
you tried to ruin my life
up burn my thoughts of him
the virus leaves me
Best UnderOath song<3 |
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| It hurts so bad. It really does. All I can do is cry and that doesnt help. I miss him so much. I dont understand how he can say he wants me happy yet this is the saddest Ive ever been. I dont think I could even be in a room with him without crying. I dont even think he is that upset about it. And Im the one who cant stop crying. I love him I really do. And I dont care that Im 16. Me and him have been through so much together and no matter what happens he is still everything to me. He said we are going to talk and hang out. But I know thats not true. Ill only see him if Im with Ricky. And it will be awkward because hell be flirting with my friends and Ill be sitting there thinking about how much he means to me. He told me he loved me and then said he couldnt do this anymore. How can you say that to someone and then break their heart. It makes no sense. If you love them then be with them. Dont go acting like you dont. All my friends have told me that I am so much better then him and I deserve better. But I dont want better I want him. Because to me he is the best. But I took it for granted thinking he would never leave me no matter what I did. I should have just been happy. I really was. Ive just been through so much I didnt know how to show it. I hate this so much. I wish yesterday never happened. |
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| I just got my heart ripped out. Me and john are no more. |
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| My surgery went ok. Except my vicadin isnt working so Im in a lot of pain. Thats why I didnt go to school. I have to go tomorrow though. I hope this is the last one they have to do. Im sick of it. I hate being in pain. I want to talk to John about it but the dipshit didnt answer his phone last night. I get out of p.e. for 2 weeks and maybe longer if Im still in pain. Its really hard to try and explain my surgeries and whats wrong. Its embarassing yet people think its funny to make fun of it. There are times that I wish I never asked my mom about stuff so then I would have never gone to the doctors and had the surgeries. But if I did that I would have never been with John again. I hate feeling that the only reason he is with me is because I had a surgery cause now it seems like he doesnt even care. I just want this to stop. I dont want to worry about whats wrong with my body. I just want to hang out with my friends and be happy. And thats all I want.<3 |
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